Sunday, December 28, 2014

 whom 
 of concer

i guess this post is going to be a tad bittersweet.
you may or may not know that i've been a huge letter enthusiast for the past few years {letter enthusiast pertaining to writing/penpalling/snailmailing}.
people refuge to different things to get their mind off things and letter writing has been my one saving grace for the longest while. i thoroughly enjoy travelling and snailmailing has been my way of being able to connect to different cultures around the world while getting to know different types of people. i think i've been able to experience a number of feelings that i haven't been able to experience in real life through writing- just being able to pour your heart and soul out on paper and sending it to people who are so amazingly understanding and empathetic is something i will forever be thankful for.

penpalling, in my opinion, is ridiculously underrated and strongly over-looked as some childish activity but believe you me, there's a huge sub-culture for it. letter writing is still very much alive and breathing.
over the past while i've been slowly progressing from casual letters ranging with intimacy, to fusing my letters with trinkets and finally turning it all into an art form where i have been able to find people who enjoy writing and drawing as much as i do.

it's all been such an amazing experience and the letters i have received i will hold close to my heart but i dread to admit that i will be ceasing my letter writing commitments very soon.

with such progressions with writing i just haven't have had the time nor the energy to write lately and university is probably the reason why. in the up coming year i've a ton to do and i'd feel to guilty having my penpals wait months upon months for a reply so with plenty of thinking and contemplating i've decided that a permanent hiatus is due. 

 it goes without saying that i am forever indebted to a penpal i have codenamed 'J'.
no, i don't actually know their real name and if you're curious, s/he doesn't know mine either. how possibly could two people write to each other without knowing the fundamentals...well, i thought that at first. there was just a point where i thought of letter writing as a side hobby and i'd keep a comfortable relationship with those who i wrote to where culture exchanges and pleasantries were a staple in every letter but this person changed all that.
i guess i could get extremely cheesy over this and if you've been stalking my blog for a while you've probably already seen me getting cheesy over it but...

it was simply fate. 

you know.
i don't believe in all those cheesy fairytale kind of relationships and happy ever afters. i scorn over lovey dovey couples and damn them slightly. i'm really just a bitch in short but is it weird to say that the closest thing i've been to love is probably with a person i've never met, never knew the name of and well, never really just....knew?
but in the same way i knew everything about her/him. we just looked past on everything that we felt insecure about and just embraced everything else that we stood for and that...was just something very, very priceless and special.
obviously we aren't in a relationship or anything of that sort. i'm just very thankful of how accepting, non-judgemental, eye-opening and down-right fucking amazing that person is.
they're basically the definition of kindred spirit for me and it's pretty damn gr8.

anyways.
it's been a swell ride.
i recommend letter writing to literally anyone who has spare time and earnestly would love to learn about other people/cultures.
just a tip; you're better off writing to people you meet who are specifically looking for penpals rather than people who know online from another country. why? well people looking for penpals are more committed and likely to keep corresponding for a long amount of time since they're specifically looking for other people to write with. i've had bad experiences with writing to those i knew online and some ended up not replying after a couple of months so yeah. just a heads up.
{spam of letters in-coming}